Now I'm All Messed Up
Description:
This is a song that Sara Quin wrote and that appeared on the album Heartthrob.
The lyric video was created by Travis Hopkins.
Video:
Lyrics:
Stay, you'll leave me in the morning anyway
My heart, you cut it out you never liked me anyway
Why do you take me down this road if you don't want to walk with me?
Why do you exit, go it alone, when you could just talk to me?
Now I'm all messed up, sick inside wondering where
Where you're leaving your makeup
Now I'm all messed up, sick inside wondering who
Whose life you're making worthwhile
Go, go, go if you want, I can't stop you
Go if you want, I can't stop you
Sad, you come back to me always anyway
Leave a mark, you say you never really loved her anyway
Why do I take this lonely road, nobody here to walk with me?
Don't want to start fresh all over again
Why won't you just comfort me?
Now I'm all messed up, sick inside wondering where
Where you're leaving your makeup
Now I'm all messed up, sick inside wondering who
Whose life you're making worthwhile
Go, go, go if you want, I can't stop you
Go if you want, I can't stop you
Go, go, go if you want, I can't stop you
Go if you want, I can't stop you
Now I'm all messed up, sick inside wondering where
Where you're leaving your makeup
Now I'm all messed up, sick inside wondering who
Whose life you're making worthwhile
Go, go, go if you want, I can't stop you
Go if you want, I can't stop you
Go (Please stay)
Go (Please stay)
Go if you want, I can't stop you
(You'll go if you want to, you'll go if you want to)
Go if you want, I can't stop you
Go (Please stay)
Go (Please stay)
Go if you want, I can't stop you
(You'll go if you want to, you'll go if you want to)
Go if you want, I can't stop you
Go (Please stay)
Go (Please stay)
Go if you want, I can't stop you
(You'll go if you want to)
Go if you want, I can't stop you
Trivia and Quotes:
“I was listening to a lot of Dolly Parton, and I don’t feel like I have a good enough voice to do what she does, but I was thinking of “I Will Always Love You” and how those songs work. It’s hard to articulate, but I wanted the song to be able to be stripped down to one instrument with the vocals, or it could be a big anthemic ballad. I know it’s not really a ballad, but it felt like a ballad. I wanted it to be really bulletproof, whether you were playing it stripped it down or a huge full band. This was also maybe the first time I’d given a gender identity to the person who I’m singing about. I don’t usually use pronouns or describe the person, although obviously most people know that I’m gay and will assume that I’m writing about a woman. I remember writing “where you’re leaving your makeup” — and obviously, men can wear makeup, too — and thinking that really feels like it’s purposeful. Most people would assume I’m a girl talking about a girl who’s leaving her makeup in someone else’s bed, and I remember it seemed really new to me to do that. It sounds so weird, but I’m not even sure that I’m doing it because I’m trying to break new ground. It was just discovering a new way to write — I like to write to the “you.” To me, it’s the most emotional way to do something. It sounds so simple to think why did it take so long to cross that boundary, and I’ve done it again with “Boyfriend,” but for me, it’s not that easy. That was the first time I really shed something about who I am and who the person is that I’m dating and writing about.” - Sara in 2016
Credits:
Produced by Greg Kurstin
Mixed by Greg Kurstin
Engineered and mixed by Greg Kurstin at Echo Studio, Los Angeles CA
Additional engineering by Jesse Shatkin
Drums recorded by Billy Bush, assisted by Jeremy Miller and Andrew Ford, at EastWest Studios, Los Angeles CA
Mastered by Brian Gardner at Bernie Grundman Mastering
Musicians:
Sara Quin: Vocals
Tegan Quin: Vocals
Greg Kurstin: Keyboards, Guitar, Bass, Piano
Joey Waronker: Drums
Written by Tegan Quin and Sara Quin
Published by Naked in a Snowsuit Publishing (SOCAN)